Corrective, self-criticism,; that’s what hurts most.
Ever find yourself being overly critical of something you have done? For me it generates some pretty extreme feelings e.g., remorse, regret, disappointment, disgust, dissatisfaction, self-loathing, guilt, sorrow, etc. etc. These feelings then create thoughts such as, “you acted like an idiot” or maybe “you screwed up”, which then trigger more feelings like the previously mentioned. This is, if I am honest with myself, my conscience trying to help me learn. It doesn’t want me to suffer and it doesn’t want me to hurt, but it does want me to know the truth. Which isn’t always sunshine and rainbows. When I accept this I learn something about what not to be or do. Plus It’s kind of cool to get plus two attribute points towards volition.
There’s a catch though. I have to listen. Not superficially, but LISTEN by asking questions in order to understand. So when I hear, “you acted like an idiot” I reply “How?”. Then continue the conversation until it arrives at a mutual accord (harmony). This is the bittersweet aspect for me. I have understood the wrong, accepted it, and show it through my actions.
Sometimes this can take a minute though. metaphorically speaking of course. In fact, at times it doesn’t flow like above. That’s a best case scenario. There are times when I hear, “you acted like an idiot” and I reply “No I didn’t” and rationalize it with some bogus, over the top justification. I found that this approach will prolong a grief period; I have tasted victory.
I write to inspire my moral conduct and expedite those things I define as auspicious, e.g., forgiving myself.
“The one thing that doesn’t abide by majority rule is a person’s conscience.”
― To Kill a Mockingbird
RighteouslyUnscripted 
When we feel empty, it is an appropriate time to search for the Grandeur of the Creator and to find support in Him. The more lowly we feel about ourselves, and the greater we perceive the Creator, then to this degree we can rise after requesting that the Creator to save ourselves and alleviate the present situation. The Creator brings about this elevation after revealing his greatness in order to offer the strength to move forward. In such a condition, we need the Creator and his help, since our reason is pulling in a completely different direction. Therefore, the feelings of emptiness are given precisely in order that we feel them, with the perception of the Creator’s greatness, called quote “Faith” a righteous person is one who, in all that is felt, be it bad or good, justifies the actions of the creator, regardless of the feelings experienced by body, heart and reason. By justifying all Sensations received from the Creator, it is as if one takes a step forward towards the Creator, called the right step. This is from attaining the worlds Beyond a guide to spiritual discovery by Michael Laitman, Phd
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